I have something to tell you. You’ll be shocked, but I have to let it out, I have to confess.
I don’t like showering.
Before you go spitting out your coffee on the screen, let me just say that I do shower. Regularly. I just don’t like it. To me it’s in the same category as housework. Wash dishes, wash laundry, wash self. Not necessarily in that order.
The problem is that showering leaves very little room for distraction. I actually have to listen to my brain on over-drive, because there is nothing to steal the focus. I mean, usually I’ll have my nose in a book, blog, magazine, whatever. But all things readable are highly allergic to water. Not cool.
This is one of the many side effect of having GAD. Since I stopped with all meds six months ago, I have to rely on alternative coping methods. Like keeping my brain so busy I wont be able to worry.
But I have nothing to keep busy with in the shower. Aside from washing, obviously, but hello, I always multitask. I can’t not multitask. If I do something and only that something, my brain will go haywire instantly.
And then there’s the fact that you have to get out of a warm shower and touch the cold floor and dry up and it takes ages to get your clothes on and then you have to fix your hair and moisturize and put on deodorant and fuck whatelse. I’m not a fan is all I’m saying.
What if you play the radio? And spent your time in the shower focusing on singing instead of your thoughts? Yay for you, possibly bad for your neighbors but hey who cares about them…
I haven’t actually thought about this as an option. Wouldn’t I have to blare it on super high volume to hear through the stream of the shower? Maybe not, I’m gonna give it a try. Thanks for the suggestion.
I totally get this. I like showering. I use it to calm down. However, when I first started suffering from depression and anxiety I had the most panic attacks in the shower. I think because I was supposed to be preparing for the day.
That’s one of the reasons why I’ve taken to showering in the evening instead. Not as much of a dropkick to the anxiety center.
I am SO glad that you threw in that disclaimer that you DO shower. LOL! I do think it’s a great place to relax or be in deep thought. Like you though, I do hate the transition from the shower to the cold floor!